Last minute thoughts (38 weeks, 6 days)

George has an awful, awful cold this week. Lately his colds start out innocuous enough but after a day or two turn into full on hacking fits, with coughing so painful he cries, which then makes him cough more, etc. etc. He struggles to breathe and sleep for anyone in the household is limited to non-existent. It goes away quickly enough- usually just 24 hours or so is bad- but is plenty frightening enough while it lasts. We just went through one of those yesterday. I was awake most of last night just out of fear concerning my wheezing, choking son. And it occurred to me somewhere between 2 and 3 a.m. that I am about to *double* my stakes in this game!! Who was it that said to have a child is to forever go about with your heart walking outside your body? Nevermind BASE jumping or mountain climbing, motherhood is what really takes nerves of steel. And on top of that, not to do it once, but repeatedly...