About work

I realized that I kind of left you hanging on the question of work... in fact I was offered the teaching position I interviewed for just days before miss Helen arrived. Unfortunately the schedule of the class I was offered was not a very good fit for me and I turned it down. In the end I am going to do something quite similar to what I did before, which is some part time work with PAR- my clinical job- and my consulting work on the side. I have been doing the consulting work as I am able, all along, and I actually started back with PAR last week, doing about 4-6 hours per week. In January I will step it up to 16-18, and one of our babysitters is going to nanny for us two half days a week. Tim does some, and the rest is work from home.

It feels okay but not ideal. To my surprise I found I quite liked being at home with George full time during the whole bedrest thing. I wish I could work a bit less but it's not an option just now. Actually I doubt that I would ever find a solution that feels "right" because I have a grass is always greener thing going on. When I leave the kids to go to work I feel kind of sad, then I enjoy actually being at work (I have a great, interesting, rewarding job), then I come home and have all the dishes and laundry piled up and it's a downer again. Actually the being-too-busy part is the hardest aspect of it, not so much the being-away-from-kids part as I don't work that many hours out of the home. I feel like I can't be as fully present with the kids as I want when I am home, because I have all the housework and the work from PAR that I do at home to take care of.

Note to self: next house must have (1) dishwasher and (2) first floor laundry.

Postscript: I really need to rename this blog! Although as a nursing mama I do still spend a fair amount of each day on the couch. Any ideas?